Better day today

Writing about how frustrated I am really helps.  The funny things in my head I hear "does complaining about _____(insert it here) really help?"   In this case yes.  It kept me from binge eating and has my focus on how I am feeling, how my close are fitting, and on how my non-scale victories are coming along.  These are all important things.
  If I keep focusing on those things the weight should come off, eventually - and that is going to have to be good enough for now.  

How do you keep from going insane?

So it was weigh in day again today, I was feeling good.  I had eaten well all week. I hadn't worked out as much as I would have liked, but I did get some working out in.  I stepped on the scale all ready for my scale victory (finally!), and to my horror what do I see - 0.2 gain!!! Again I gained again seriously?   How does this keep happening.
  I can work with my friends, tell them all the tricks and they lose and I follow what I am "preaching" and I gain! I'm at that dangerous tipping point.  I hate being here.  I called my sister and at least talking to her for a bit kept me from binging at lunch.
  If it wasn't for the want of having children of my own I would seriously look into the gastric bypass surgery, but I just don't think it would do me good to have the surgery and then go off and get pregnant.  So for now it is lots of prayers for my sanity and for things to work the way they are suppose to and an appointment for next Friday with a homopathic doctor.
  He is my last option.  I am sure hoping he can find some imbalance that can fix this.

Any comments from those that may be reading this would be appreciated.

Date day, up lifted spirit

So I took the day off yesterday and my boyfriend and I had an adult day at Disney.  We had a great time. There was very few people there, our longest wait time was maybe 20 minutes! We got into two restaurants with no fuss - that never happens.  We ran up the monorail ramps like we were little kids, laughing all the way.

Even though bmy boyfriend is one of those lucky ones who is blessed with a high metabolism, he knows what I'm trying to achieve and is my biggest supporter.  So we walked, we ran, we ate healthy, we laughed, and we just enjoyed each others company.  There was no plan, no time frame just to enjoy each others company.  I can't put into words how much my spirit has been uplifted and renewed,

I haven't even stepped on the scale and my brain doesn't care today. ;-)

Have a great Saturday!

A little Sweat can change your attitude

So after yesterday's frustration I got home and wanted to work out but had things and places to be.  So once I finally returned home for the night at almost 9 pm and decided no matter what I was going to get something in, even if for only 10 minutes.

Well I fell back on an oldy but a goody, Leslie Sanson walk at home 5k with a twist.  And I PUSHED it! I was pouring sweat and I kicked out 3.1 one mile, in the comfort of my home, for 42 minutes.  I took a shower, said good night, and passed out.  This morning I woke up feeling better, attitude better, and ready to tackle the day.   I got to work and did a set of calf raises and squats before sitting in my chair and starting the work before me.

I'm tracking what I eat, I'm working out, and I'm meeting the goals I set.  I have made an appointment with a homopathic doctor - won't see him for a few weeks - but I'm hoping he will be able to help my body respond correctly.  I know I'm doing what I'm suppose to do and that if my body would respond the weight will come off.  So for now I will focus on meeting the goal of the day: did I eat right, did I get some kind of workout in.

Happy Thursday to you all.

Frustrated

So I have been back on weight watchers for 4 weeks, and low and behold I have gained every week!! How, please someone respond and tell me how it is possible to watch what you eat and train for a half marathon and still gain weight!!!

This time I'm not letting the frustration get to me - I am going to keep pushing forward and work on my food intake and keep working out.  Sometime my body has to respond correctly.   However if any of you who may be reading this have any input I am all ears.

43 days till 2nd half

43 more days till I run my second 1/2 marathon.  This run will be at Disney for the Princes half marathon and I will be running with my sister.  (Though she is faster than I am so we are sending her ahead to see what time she can get)  I can't wait to see her face, and those of my friends - who are running the 10k the day before - as I cross the finish line.  
This is my next goal.  It is a non-scale goal.  For the moment that is what I am focusing on.  Though I have joined weight watchers again - the scale is still giving me fits.  So through WW I keep my food in check, and just use my success as a runner to give me the positives that I need.

I am looking into a homopathic doctor to see if he can help me figure out why my body does not respond to all the normal efforts for weight loss.  I have hope that he can help, but I'm keeping it in check so I don't get too frustrated if he doesn't.

We shall see what happens from here.

What a difference 2 years can make

While I am still struggling with my weight I have had a lot of non scale victories.

I have run 15 5k races since October 2011, 1 10k race and 1 1/2 marathon.  I will be running my second 1/2 marathon in 47 days at Disney with my sister.

2 years ago a 1/2 marathon was just something that I said was on my bucket list.  It was something I had thought about wanting to do for many years, but never really thought I would accomplish.  Well when you have the right support and encouragement from those who truly love you - you can really do anything you put your mind to.  So I look back and realize that the weight loss goals are going to eventually come, but until then I will keep counting my non scale victories and hold tight to those accomplishments.