made it north

We drive north last night and made it safely to our families home.  We are enjoying the time with our nieces this morning.  Boyfriend has come down with something so he is napping.  He was going to go with me to see the doctor, but I think I will let him sleep so he can get better.  This doctor has helped this family a lot, including helping save a pregnancy. Those are high praises.  I will report after the appointment at 1:30.  Thank you to all who are out there following me and keeping me in your prayers.

Oh and it's only 36 degrees!!! It feels wonderful!!! (Sorry to all my tritely northern friend who are in shin zero temps)

Have a wonderful day!

Tomorrow

Tomorrow I have my appointment with the homiopathic doctor.  I know even if he finds something he can help with it will not be a fast process.  I need to keep my hopefullness in check.  I want to be hopeful, but not so much that I give up before I start if I don't see progress right away.  I have to go in with an open mind, new ears, and the desire to try ever step full heartedly.

My greatest fear right now is that he will only resay all the stuff I already know, but even if he does he may have a different way of trying to fix it - so I need to be open to that too.

Prayers would be appreciated.

Hope you are all staying warm out there.

New week, new attitude (again)

Each week is a chance to start over, and I take it.  This Friday I will be making the trip north to see the homiopathic doctor.  I know it will not be a "fast cure" but I am hoping he can help and has different ideas for me to try.

I was sick last week so I didn't get to keep up with my training, but I feel better today so here is to a week full of 1/2 marathon training.  Just 32 more days until my sister and I run the Disney Princess 1/2 marathon!!! It will be her first 1/2 and my second.  I am so excited.  My Niece and nephew will be running the kids dash on Friday and Uncle Ian and myself plan to be there when the cross to surprise them. :)  My sister made my niece and I matching sparkle skirts - I can't wait to get a picture together in them.

The thing that helps me push through some of the tough workouts: http://www.whoirun4.com/.   I am matched with a great 4 year old little boy who has Hypo Hidrodic Ectodermal Dysplasia - which means he cannot regulate his own body temperature and requires a cooling vest in hot weather and other times as well.  We send pictures and comments.    He's an extra reason to get out there and get moving.  

If you are a runner, or just want more motivation to work out check out this site http://www.whoirun4.com/ and follow the sign up process. If you are the parent of a child that could benefit from being matched with a running, please go to this site and sign them up.   There are currently over 2000 runners signed up waiting for their running buddy/coach.  If you know of friends or family please pass on the word.

Have a great Monday, y'all

Better day today

Writing about how frustrated I am really helps.  The funny things in my head I hear "does complaining about _____(insert it here) really help?"   In this case yes.  It kept me from binge eating and has my focus on how I am feeling, how my close are fitting, and on how my non-scale victories are coming along.  These are all important things.
  If I keep focusing on those things the weight should come off, eventually - and that is going to have to be good enough for now.  

How do you keep from going insane?

So it was weigh in day again today, I was feeling good.  I had eaten well all week. I hadn't worked out as much as I would have liked, but I did get some working out in.  I stepped on the scale all ready for my scale victory (finally!), and to my horror what do I see - 0.2 gain!!! Again I gained again seriously?   How does this keep happening.
  I can work with my friends, tell them all the tricks and they lose and I follow what I am "preaching" and I gain! I'm at that dangerous tipping point.  I hate being here.  I called my sister and at least talking to her for a bit kept me from binging at lunch.
  If it wasn't for the want of having children of my own I would seriously look into the gastric bypass surgery, but I just don't think it would do me good to have the surgery and then go off and get pregnant.  So for now it is lots of prayers for my sanity and for things to work the way they are suppose to and an appointment for next Friday with a homopathic doctor.
  He is my last option.  I am sure hoping he can find some imbalance that can fix this.

Any comments from those that may be reading this would be appreciated.

Date day, up lifted spirit

So I took the day off yesterday and my boyfriend and I had an adult day at Disney.  We had a great time. There was very few people there, our longest wait time was maybe 20 minutes! We got into two restaurants with no fuss - that never happens.  We ran up the monorail ramps like we were little kids, laughing all the way.

Even though bmy boyfriend is one of those lucky ones who is blessed with a high metabolism, he knows what I'm trying to achieve and is my biggest supporter.  So we walked, we ran, we ate healthy, we laughed, and we just enjoyed each others company.  There was no plan, no time frame just to enjoy each others company.  I can't put into words how much my spirit has been uplifted and renewed,

I haven't even stepped on the scale and my brain doesn't care today. ;-)

Have a great Saturday!

A little Sweat can change your attitude

So after yesterday's frustration I got home and wanted to work out but had things and places to be.  So once I finally returned home for the night at almost 9 pm and decided no matter what I was going to get something in, even if for only 10 minutes.

Well I fell back on an oldy but a goody, Leslie Sanson walk at home 5k with a twist.  And I PUSHED it! I was pouring sweat and I kicked out 3.1 one mile, in the comfort of my home, for 42 minutes.  I took a shower, said good night, and passed out.  This morning I woke up feeling better, attitude better, and ready to tackle the day.   I got to work and did a set of calf raises and squats before sitting in my chair and starting the work before me.

I'm tracking what I eat, I'm working out, and I'm meeting the goals I set.  I have made an appointment with a homopathic doctor - won't see him for a few weeks - but I'm hoping he will be able to help my body respond correctly.  I know I'm doing what I'm suppose to do and that if my body would respond the weight will come off.  So for now I will focus on meeting the goal of the day: did I eat right, did I get some kind of workout in.

Happy Thursday to you all.